How do you convince someone that though you don't really like something he/she has bought for you,it doesn't mean you don't like him/her or doesn't respect his/her decision to do so for you?..sounds naive no? this seems to be one of those questions to which I never find an answer.Okay,I like/love someone really really a lot.But that doesn't mean I have to like every single thing he/she gets for me.This doesn't translate to hypocrisy.or the opposite of gratitude(what is it?I have forgotten.).No.gratitude is not the word.It should be...i don't know what.But you get me right?

The thing is suppose someone buys something for you which you don't like.You cannot explain to him/her that you don't like it because that would be a very rude thing to do.So you smile and accept it.And then after sometime,you grow out of tolerance with it(not love/liking,because you've never liked it).And you hardly use it.(you're human.not a winged-and-haloed angel)Then the person who's given that thing to you accuses

you don't like it anymore....it's such a wastage......

which leads to

you have changed a lot...this reflects in your attitude towards life......

which automatically leads to

you want everything that attracts you....your generation is a use-them-and-throw-them type.It shows in your lifestyle.You hang out with someone today..then go after someone else the next day...you don't have mental peace....you're never satisfied.....when we were your age,we had less but we were happier..............

Dear people-who-say-this,

I'd love to point out that

1>yes,we the young-uns might be a high-spending demographic nowadays,but that doesn't make us shallow/unhappy/dissatisfied or something like that.

2>we don't change our partners because we're the use-them-and-throw-them types.we do because we definitely a more concrete reason that that. well,mostly.

3>we don't want everything that attracts us.

a) we are not rolling in cash.

b) we are not like that.

We indulge ourselves a lot.yes we do.And we don't think that's wrong,because we have only one life,and every single person has a right to be happy and enjoy it to the fullest.We don't consider living our lives in a complete rut a way to happiness and satisfaction.We think that it's an escapist mentality.

But we do know where to draw the line.We save and then spend.We do not treat ourselves as money-producing-and-spending machines.When we buy something that we like,it does not mean we go crazy buying everything that we want.And when we don't use something,it doesn't mean we have grown out of it.It means we never liked it much,but gave in due to certain reasons,foremost among them being behaving decently.I,for one,would never stop using something I really like.take it as you mean.

You expect me to like everything that you buy for me.You want me to tell you if I don't like it.You are hurt if I actually do so.You think I am another exponent of the 'fast-and-high-living' generation X(to quote someone........whatever that means..).You blame me for being so.And then when I make a slip and do something wrong,you accuse me.

That makes you nothing.But does that make me a hypocrite entirely?

DISCLAIMER: this is NOT an attention-seeking post.merely the tumultous thoughts of a jobless soul.

I just figured out that I'm not very photogenic.Most of my pictures look retarded.Either I am sticking my tongue out,or rolling my eyes,or distorting my face or I have simply refused to look at the camera point-blank by closing my eyes.And my hair looks frizzy,the kohl(if any) is smudged,the dress is crumpled-all in all I look freakishly grungy-not cool-grungy.grungy-grungy.If you know what I mean.

I have tried to keep my face normal,smile without baring my teeth and look at the camera.End result? I look drunk/sleepy/scared/high/silly. My hair is still sticking out and my face is a cross between a half-smile and a drunken expression.the kohl is smudged making me look like the wicked mother-in-laws of the soaps(but I bet,I look scarier).

I have also tried changing the ambience,mood,posture,location and every other feasibile aspect but just ended up with nothing worthwhile.So I conclude I am not photogenic.This is a matter of perspective.Many people may find me photogenic(hic..hic).I just don't.I look chubby,drunk,sleepy and in short,weird.

Blah!

Yes. It's official.

I have the best parents in the whole wide universe and beyond.

PERIOD.

One of the nastiest feelings on earth is feeling stupid.The way that makes your insides feel totally hollow.And makes you lose your peace of mind as you just sit back and worry about the impact.how I wish I were never stupid and always said the right thing at the right time.I wish sometimes I had never opened my mouth at certain circumstances.I wish I knew how to tackle some situations, say intelligent things.

Please tell me you also feel stupid at times.It'd be a comfort(I mean,dont say it just to comfort me.say it for real).

Dhush.

I had a freak auto accident today.

I was coming back from Gariahat and sat in the auto's front side.The autowallah bumped into a taxi in front of the Selimpur petrol pump and I got thwron out of the auto under the impact and banged into the side of an Alto.The Altowallah stared at me agape,thinking I'm some alien or something to have appeared out of nowhere and banged into his car!

End result: I have a beautiful blue bell-shaped bruise on my left knee and it keeps on changing color.I think it is greenish-grey now.And I have a sneaky feeling this will change into some rare shades of green overnight.Let's hope it is bottle-green or cyan or something.I find these two colors very fascinating.I'll be sporting a cyan bell bruise like a tattoo on my left knee.

They're black, they're blue

These heavens

The scars out in her eyes

Could be cool easy pressure

Oh, when the weapons lessen

Who can tell.......

So cool =) !!!

I always knew I can fight well.But I never knew I had such a violent streak in me.And I feel it's getting out of control day by day.

A few days back,I slapped a drunken man who was indecently touching a friend of mine in the auto.I abused him and almost pushed him out of the auto till the local people took the matter in their hands.

Today I went to collect my voter id card.We were standing in the queue for like two and half hours.Then suddenly this man came in from nowhere and tried to break into the queue almost at the front.I shouted at him,asking him to get out.He didn't budge.Neither did anyone else.So I grabbed him by his collar and pushed him out of the line.Then when he started giving attitude,I almost slapped him till the police intervened.

Pure adrenaline rush I must say.And I feel really kicked after having such fights with people :). I have this 'bring it on' kind of attitude,I don't give a damn about anyone in the world giving shit....

I seriously need a haircut now.My hair has grown longer and browner.There's this stupid heat and so hair sticks to my neck all the time making me feel all sweaty and itchy.And I can't wet it for it wont dry before at least 2 hours.All this is making me very snappy.But my mother and grandmother won't let me have a haircut....this is so unfair.I mean,come one,my hair my rules!But then,who listens??...I hate my hair right now.hate it hate it hate it.

Also,I seem to be wasting all my time playing cards.There's a difference.I don't think I'm wasting my time.We're turning into seriously unsocial people nowadays.We don't sit and talk anymore.We're too engrossed in playing cards.....29,Bluff,Screw,Fish,BlackJack,Teenpatti............and what's more no one's complaining.Not even me :). Choi and Somdev are a couple.They too spend their time playing cards whenever Choi comes to JU. :).

So long,au revoir.

UUUFFFFF...

icche korchhe jekhane ja taar acche...shob kete di....

baaps re baaps...............